I’ve gone through quite a few changes in the past couple of months. I didn’t stop blogging because of these changes, but rather because I didn’t see the point anymore.
I lost my voice. And I wanted to get it back so badly but I didn’t know how. I tried reading other blogs, spending more time with friends, being present in every situation. However, nothing changed. Until today.
As I am writing this, I am sitting on the balcony of my new apartment with birds chirping away. There will be a home decor tour soon. Right now, we honestly don’t have a couch. But I would rather have my bills paid and food in my fridge than have a couch right now. Ya feel me?
But in all honesty, I’m not sure how I got here. I have a brand new car and a new apartment. I still have (some) of my sanity left. But I honestly don’t know how all of this happened.
I should be losing my mind, right? Like I’m “adulting” full time now. I just graduated college and I still don’t have a permanent job lined up. So, I should be extremely stressed, right?
Well, I have this new perspective on life.
Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. –Philippians 4:6 NLT
For someone who has struggled with anxiety disorder for 6 years now, that scripture has been a foundation for much of my life. Though it does not help me in the midst of a panic attack, it has helped me in this season of my life.
“Don’t worry about anything” is a command that many people tend to misinterpret. I think that Paul was acknowledging the fact that we, as humans, will have the tendency to worry. He isn’t denying that fact. What he is saying is we should pray instead.
Instead of freaking out about where the finances are going to come from, pray instead.
Instead of worrying about things you should be able to control but can’t, pray instead.
Instead of chasing after false hope, pray instead.
God knows exactly what we need and when we need it. I know it’s easier said than done. However, I am a living breathing testimony of what it’s like to trust God and pray instead, all the while thanking Him for what He’s already done.
I’m not telling you not to worry. I can’t control that in my own self. However, I am saying that when we catch ourselves worrying, be mindful that the creator of the Universe is taking care of it all.